Issue 1 Poetry

I am Not! (after John Clare)

I am not 



what I am:

a memory lost:


in wire lightning

rise and vanish

ship       wrec k

nothing ness of scorn & NO

ise stranger than      the rest i long

for screams     smiled with my


By Sy Brand

Sy is a queer non-binary person living in Edinburgh, Scotland. They write through the haze of cat-/child-induced sleep deprivation to try and make sense of gender, relationships, and ADHD. You can find them on Twitter @TartanLlama and their publications at